Thursday, 15 November 2012

Why worry?


There are a lot times in my life, where I have to put my head in my hands and breath and when that doesn't work I don't give up, but I keep trying until it does.

There isn't one thing that makes me do this (so, I can plan ahead and avoid it in the future). It can be a number of things, I could hear something on the telly or radio, read something or the worst is when someone tells me something. When that happens I am left feeling panicked and feel like I need air, even if I am standing outside, which can come across as rude to the other person/people.

My body goes into a state of panic, I feel all hot and bothered and most of all I worry and worry some more, and boy do I worry.

I am a natural born worrier, even though I know that my worrying can not control a situation (however hard I try) I will still worry about an outcome until I know the result. In everyday life this can be resolved in a simple and calm manor, I can stop watching or reading, I can remove myself from the situation and (try to) put the information I have just absorbed to the back of my mind. But... It will still niggle away, until I find out what the result was. I could resolve this by reading to the end of a news article or listening watching out for news updates.

The worst is when it is something that involves someone I know, this can vary from the little things of; asking a friend to text me to let them know they got home safely to the bigger things that most people would worry about; when a loved one is ill.

This isn't something that I have just developed, it has been growing since I was little and I wouldn't worry about the big things that I should really worry/panic/be nervous about; performing on stage to an audience of 2,000 and it not even crossing my mind to what they think, but I would worry/panic/be nervous about the new person who I would be working with and if they liked me or not. It is always worse when I know the person/people.

I am growing as a person and I have learnt to be stronger and fight some of the battles I used to let other people win. I used to live by the motto of: "You can hurt me, but I will stand up to you if you hurt the ones I love". I know that this isn't a healthy way of thinking (see, I admit I know, but I still let it happen), but I know stick up for myself and others, when I know a person is in the wrong and they are treating another human in a way that just isn't acceptable. I feel good about myself for about an hour, knowing that what I did was right, but then the worrying kicks in and it is then a vicious circle from there on in. I give it ten years before I forget about it (I joke....).

I know that if my life was played by an Eastenders/American sitcom character, people would be sat shouting at the telly, telling me to pull myself together and I would no doubt join them in doing so. But, it really isn't that easy, there is a worry button in my head that clicks at certain times and off I go for the next X amount of time.

This is where the 'head in hands' comes into use, I go into some sort of meditation like state to calm myself down and clear my mind of the impending worry. It seems to be getting easier, but I guess time will tell.







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7 comments:

  1. i'm exactly the same! i've noticed its got a lot worse this past year too i'm starting to get bad anxiety.. thanks for these quotes i need to remember this :) x

    http://lorihearts.blogspot.co.uk/

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    1. Thank you Lori, I hope it doesn't get any worse for you. :) x

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  2. Ah I totally understand, I worry about everything!! Sometimes I worry if I'm not worrying about something... can't help it..

    Please check out my latest post if you have a few minutes spare :)

    Helen

    www.fragile-bird.blogspot.co.uk

    x

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    1. Thank you and I'll take a look at your blog. :)

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  3. Keep your head up. I think your recognition of your anxiety and positive attitude are huge steps toward ridding yourself of this worrying ;) excellent quotes.

    www.isavelivesbyejc.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Eric, I'll have to make sure I keep the quotes at the forefront of my mind. :)

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  4. So true, yet I can't seem to get rid of it completely! Very inspiring though!

    http://lasaloperie.blogspot.com.br/

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